Date: Monday, May 18, 2009 Time: 4:05 PM
thanks huimin & kunmiao & shiyun . apologies to shiyun for my words just now , you know what i mean . totally disappointed with myself with my maths results , although i improved , but still not up to standard . had a little chat with shiyun on phone just now , she consoled me , thanks . i'll work harder i guess ? i hope i wouldn't give up because of a little setbacks . but my emotions aren't that stable yet , so shan't say much too . boyf had a hard time just now in the morning consoling me . i guess his having a headache about what i said too . i made him speechless , apologies to you too . i can't afford to fail anymore in my secondary 4 life . i don't have much time to waste & yet i'm still wasting time . craps isn't it ? i actually knew how much time we had left till N's & it's 14 weeks only . 2 more weeks to O's chinese , how fast time flies ? i know myself , how much i want to get to secondary 5 in 2010 . & i don't want to end up in ITE . i know ITE aren't a bad choice too , but i don't want myself to end up there . most people hope too isn't it ? but i don't understand , why i just don't have the motivation to study . till today , i know how sucks my results are because .. i took back 4 papers & i only passed 1 while 2 papers only borderline fail . if i haven't got careless mistake , i would have pass at least another paper . i'm going out soon , repair my phone. updates later . [edit] went out to meet yingsi at my house nearby bus stop . smoked & bus-ed down to J8 ; bishan . she's crapping during the trip , bitch her ! reached & went to repair my phone . i could only get my phone back 3 days ltr ): ): ): im sure to die w/o my precious w980 ! walked around after that since vivian-darh will only finish her lecture at 6pm . met santaisdead too (: he reached earlier thn vivian-darh. at around 6.30pm , she reached & came to look for us (: went pastamania , had dinner there . slacked , chitchatted too :D santaisdead went off earlier thn us. at around 7.30pm , went back home . thursday out w vivian-darh & yingsi too for my anniversary present . maybe giving baby it earlier i guess . isn't a big & expensive present , but is the thought that counts (: hope he like it ohs . he doesn't know about it . HAHAHA ! waited for baby till around 9pm+ then he called me. sleepy & tired . im off to bed early today i guess . [/edit] i wanna work hard on my examinations , but how ? there's no motivation , no determination . i need someone to coach on me . teach me ? Labels: i've let you down . ![]() |